Ugh, that question is terribly depressing.
On the bright side, I finished gathering and organizing my tax documents, ready to deliver to the accountant. Only about 45 days later than usual! This is a "have to" that I'm glad to be done with.
I saw a fantastic baseball game Sunday. Both teams played as though they were defending no-hitters even though it was only the third inning, the lead changed hands several times, two pitchers faced 4 or 5 batters without getting a single out, and the game came down to the last out in the bottom of the 9th. AND I found a baseball on the sidewalk while I was walking back to my car. You can't beat that for good value. And that was a "want to."
Tomorrow evening I'll be joining friends for dinner and a poetry reading. That's a "want to," too.
I'll be taking a riding lesson this weekend, if all goes as planned. Ditto for that one.
Maybe this "have to/want to" thing isn't as unbalanced as it seems. What a happy thought!